This is how I’ve lost my balance (and also how I found it)

When I was younger all I wanted was to be a mom.

I had that romantic image of rocking my child to sleep in my arms.

I genuinely thought this is what motherhood is going to be like.

All. The. Time.

I never considered asking ‘how really is it like?’

My pre-mom judged other mamas in the grocery stores because ‘my kids will never act like this’ (of course they did and still do).

I just KNEW I’m going to be an awesome mom.

And then, I became one.

And. It. Was. NOTHING. Like. I. Envisioned. It. To. Be.

Nothing.

Along with my baby came a heap of uncertainty, feelings of inadequacy, and chaos.

I thought that if I just managed to keep my baby fed, house tidy, dinner on the table, I’d feel successful.

Boy, was I wrong…

Yes, my house was clean.

Dinner was ready (mostly on time).

My babies were fed.

On the outside, my life seemed impeccable.

Inside, I was a mess.

I was resentful, bitter, angry and regretful.

I’ve lost control over my time, peace of mind, and sense of balance.

My mood was Up and then Down.

I didn’t feel stable emotionally.

Mentally I wasn’t there either.

I’ve chosen Netflix over connecting intimately with hubby night after night.

‘What is wrong with me?’

‘What happened to me?’

I often wondered…

Is this supposed to be that hard?

Can there be an easier way?

I come from a family of (mostly) women.

Turning to the women in my life and community wasn’t helpful because everyone struggled in silence.

‘It’s just a phase of life’

‘You’re not the only one having a hard time’

‘Put your big-girl pants on and keep going’

‘It’s supposed to be hard. Life is hard.”

Was what they told me.

But I refused to believe this to be true.

I refused to settle on the premise that God created women to suffer.

What if we just didn’t know better?

What if my mom didn’t know because her mom didn’t know?

I DECIDED TO FIND A WAY.

A brand new way.

I didn’t pick up personal development books or started to follow another health dogma.

Instead, I went straight to God.

Show me.

Teach me.

Empower me.

And he/she said, ‘you need to get to know yourself. I’ve encoded a powerful tool in your body that will help you live a balanced life.’

Want to know what this tool is and how to use it to live balanced?

Head on over to www.doritpalvanov.com/gettoknowyourself and download my free audio training. It’s called Get To Know Yourself. Period (pun intended) and in it you’ll learn how to live balanced as a woman, wife and mother.

Stay balanced.

It’s possible, even during a global pandemic (and maybe now more than ever)

Xo,

D

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