When I was younger all I wanted was to be a mom.
I had that romantic image of rocking my child to sleep in my arms.
I genuinely thought this is what motherhood is going to be like.
All. The. Time.
I never considered asking ‘how really is it like?’
My pre-mom judged other mamas in the grocery stores because ‘my kids will never act like this’ (of course they did and still do).
I just KNEW I’m going to be an awesome mom.
And then, I became one.
And. It. Was. NOTHING. Like. I. Envisioned. It. To. Be.
Nothing.
Along with my baby came a heap of uncertainty, feelings of inadequacy, and chaos.
I thought that if I just managed to keep my baby fed, house tidy, dinner on the table, I’d feel successful.
Boy, was I wrong…
Yes, my house was clean.
Dinner was ready (mostly on time).
My babies were fed.
On the outside, my life seemed impeccable.
Inside, I was a mess.
I was resentful, bitter, angry and regretful.
I’ve lost control over my time, peace of mind, and sense of balance.
My mood was Up and then Down.
I didn’t feel stable emotionally.
Mentally I wasn’t there either.
I’ve chosen Netflix over connecting intimately with hubby night after night.
‘What is wrong with me?’
‘What happened to me?’
I often wondered…
Is this supposed to be that hard?
Can there be an easier way?
I come from a family of (mostly) women.
Turning to the women in my life and community wasn’t helpful because everyone struggled in silence.
‘It’s just a phase of life’
‘You’re not the only one having a hard time’
‘Put your big-girl pants on and keep going’
‘It’s supposed to be hard. Life is hard.”
Was what they told me.
But I refused to believe this to be true.
I refused to settle on the premise that God created women to suffer.
What if we just didn’t know better?
What if my mom didn’t know because her mom didn’t know?
I DECIDED TO FIND A WAY.
A brand new way.
I didn’t pick up personal development books or started to follow another health dogma.
Instead, I went straight to God.
Show me.
Teach me.
Empower me.
And he/she said, ‘you need to get to know yourself. I’ve encoded a powerful tool in your body that will help you live a balanced life.’
Want to know what this tool is and how to use it to live balanced?
Head on over to www.doritpalvanov.com/gettoknowyourself and download my free audio training. It’s called Get To Know Yourself. Period (pun intended) and in it you’ll learn how to live balanced as a woman, wife and mother.
Stay balanced.
It’s possible, even during a global pandemic (and maybe now more than ever)
Xo,
D